We recently celebrated my youngest boy’s first birthday! The big ONE! Hard to believe how quickly time passes.
When he was born I had said that I would breastfeed for the first year, assuming by that point I would be ready to wean him. A year is a long time! I thought that I would be ready to put away the nursing bras and say goodbye to the “baby boobs,” but instead I find myself feeling very unsure of what to do.
My little guy never did take to drinking expressed milk from the bottle, so breastfeeding is all he has ever known. Needless, to say when I presented him with a bottle of milk he looked at me as if to say, “and what would you like me to do with this?”
I breastfed my first little boy for 10 months and at that point both he and I were pretty well ready to end the process (him more so than me). This time around is different.
Hudson loves to nurse, and when he throws the bottle of milk away and cries to be nursed, I am really not sure if weaning him right now is the right thing to do. I know that it is going to take some time for him to adjust to the idea of milk from a cup or bottle instead of the boob, but I find myself stopping to think about my reasons for weaning him. If I’m not sure I want to stop and he is still very interested in nursing, why now?
Am I doing it just because everyone around me is questioning when I am going to stop? Now that he is getting “older,” I do feel like I have lost a lot of the support that I once had. I frequently hear things like:
“You said you were going to wean him when he turned one!”
“You know you can’t breastfeed him forever, right?”
But when it comes right down to it it’s up to me. It doesn’t matter what anybody else’s opinion is, I do what is best for baby and me. I haven’t yet decided what I am going to do, but when I do make a decision it will be because I feel it is the best choice for us, and not because of his age or outside pressure!